"Pride and Prejudice"
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A fan fic by MelaniePott3r:
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Bella couldn’t sleep. Jacob was nowhere to be found after another argument. She opened the cupboard, it was full of books she bought few months ago. She picked one out.
Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen. She was looking at the cover, a pretty girl, looking back at her. She sat on the bed and started reading it. She could picture the story, just like she saw it in the movie. She could feel the characters trouble thoughts, especially Lizzie’s, Mrs. Bennett’s daughter. Also Mr. Drancy’s behavior amazed her, he seemed so distance to Lizzie, like a vampire.
She reminded her of Edward Cullen. So distanced, and even though he loved her he kept walking away from her. She read the book ‘til the last page.
She smiled when she closed it and hold it thinking. She imagined their first kiss, it was magical. She placed it on the small table next to her bed, moved her hair from falling’ to her face, reached her hand and switched off the light.
She tried to sleep but she just stared at the moon from the window facing her bed. She felt the moon watching her. She closed her eyes run her fingers through her hair and felt a cold breath on her neck. She sighed while fingers traced her cheek going down her face. She swallowed bit her lip, the touch was familiar, but she couldn’t see the demon’s face in the darkness. She reached her hand and touched his face. Traced it with her fingers, stopped on his lips, silence. She was staring in those dark eyes looking at her in the night. She could feel his breath close to her lips. She wanted to rush into him and kiss him. She leaned closer to him touched his face and sighed closing her eyes. He leaned his face on hers, Bella touched his cheek, heard him sighed at her touch. She reached her other hand and turned on the light. Edward. She was lost in his eyes.
She bit her lips looked down for a second and looked at him “how long have you been here?”, Bella asked.
“A while...”, Edward said. Bella looked at him, “since you came back home”, he finally said.
Bella didn’t say anything she just stare at him. He leaned closer to her lips touching her face, whispered I shouldn’t be here, his face touching hers, “don’t go”, she whispered terrified he might leave her. She touched his face with her hand.
He smiled his face seemed in pain “I can’t... I can’t stay away from you...”, Edward said. Bella smiled, got on her knees on the bed and fell in his arms, he hold her relieved. She moved back and holds his face with her hands staring at him smiling. “I’d die if I won’t see your smile... By the way where’s your beloved boyfriend?, that mud dog, he smirked with sarcasm, looked away and then looked at her.
She looked up at him, “he’s not here as you can see, you’re so... urgh!”, Bella said. She moved back annoyed, and he pulled her on to him and looked in her eyes smiling. He looked evil, a deadly bad boy, but Bella wasn’t afraid of his stare. Edward leaned at her lips to kiss her but she pulled away falling on the bed with him holding her hands back on the pillow.
‘I’m not gonna kiss you, not tonight, not ever, since your… acting… like that”, Bella said.
“Like what?” he smiled at her unable to move her hands. It was like they were trapped in something unbreakable.
“You’re so mean”, she complained to him.
“I’m I now?” he smiled. She rolled her eyes, looked at her ceiling. “Ok”, he said slowly, “since you want me to leave, I’ll let you sleep.”, he said. He let go of her and appeared next to the window over sudden.
Bella jump of the bed and run in front of him holding his shirt leaned her head on his chest. “Don’t go”, she cried out.
Edward leaned his head back, took a deep breath, and then looked at her holding on to him, scared of losing him. Her hands holding on his shirt, her head leaning on his chest. Her hair falling on her face, hiding her eyes.
“I should leave, but I’d die if I stay away from you… Bella, look at me, he looked at her waiting to raise her head and look in his eyes. “I was dead, walking in the darkness, until I saw the light, an angel down on earth among humans. You are the light tearing apart my darkness. A reason to hope after centuries of sadness. A rose that gives me a temporary delusion of “life”, which I don’t deserve. I have no right to live since I’m dead. No right to have feelings for you, to love… to love you…”
“you love me?”, Bella asked. Her eyes were glowing from joy when she heard those words coming out of his lips.
He smiled and took her face in his hands, “I love you, but…”, Edward whispered and she put her fingers on his lips, sh… no buts”, Bella said.
He hold her hands, “you shouldn’t be with me”, Edward said looking in her eyes.
I wanna be with you… I want you”, Bella whispered lost in his eyes.
She run her fingers through his hair breath on his lips, he sighed, “you want me..?, Edward said surprised. “What about Jacob, you should be with him.”,he said.
“I should be with him?”. Bella asked. She raised an eyebrow run her fingers through her hair moving them back. “he can kill me as well”, she pointed out and smirked.
“If he ever dare to harm you, I would..!”, Edward said furious.
“you would, what? Your pushing me away, to him right?”, Bella said and looked at his raised an eyebrow.
“Erm… your way too clever for a human”, Edward said.
“I wasn’t always a human remember?”, Bella said. He smiled at her walking her to the wall. L.J.’s back touch the wall, “then change me”, Bella said. She pulled him from the shirt on to her and breath of his neck. He turned his face and looked at her, his lips inches from hers, he breathed at her lips. “please…”, she said. She touched his face staring at him lost.
“now, you know I can’t do that.”, Edward said.
“so you rather prefer I’d go to Jacob?”, she asked.
“I should say yes, but I can’t… i…”, Edward said.
She stopped him, “you want me to kiss him, let him touch me, get his.. scent on me?” Bella asked.
He took a breath and looked at her serious, “No”, he said.
“Do I need to remind you I’ve slept with him already? Would you like me to do it again?”, she asked.
“Stop…”, he whispered trying to calm down.
“Or even better since you keep stalking me, would you like to see me in bed with him?”, Bella asked.
“Enough!”, Edward yelled and punched the wall next to her.
“Why, you’re gonna smash me as well?! Better then I’ll die and you won’t see me again.”, she cried out.
“I told you to stop”, he said looking in her eyes angry, but she wouldn’t listen.
“What are you gonna do to make me shut up? Hurt me?”, Bella said. She tried to push him and looked at him. He touched his face on hers gently and sealed his lips on to hers.
He kissed her slowly, she felt his lips and breath her lips slightly open.
He touched her face, “I’m sorry…”, Edward said.
“Don’t be”, Bella said, got on her toes and kissed him. She jumped up and stared at him, “oh my god, what if Jacob see us…”, she said worried.
“He didn’t”, Edward said and smiled at her.
“How you know?”, Bella asked him.
“Because I’ve been watching him, and when I’m not, I get… people to do it for me”, he said and smiled tracing her face with his fingers.
“People…, meaning?”, Bella asked him curious.
“Humans, vampires, doesn’t matter. Whatever is near him, and before you ask why…”, he turned to her and raised an eyebrow while Bella just stared at him, he continued. “So I can watching you sleep or be close to you, I don’t want him to hurt you, because of me.”, he said.
“Why?”, Bella asked .
“ Because I’m gonna take you away from him”, Edward said touching her face. “really? I thought you wanted me to be with him”, Bella said.
“I changed my mind”, he said.
“How come?”, she asked.
“After what happened…”, he said and stopped looking at her, he moved her hair from her face.
“It should happen more often then”, she said and kissed him looking at him.
“You should sleep”, Edward said holding her face in his hands, breathed close to her lips and smiled at her.
“ Stay with me…”, she whispered begging him not to leave her alone.
“Bella I should go…”, Edward said, but Bella fell in his arms holding his shirt leaning on his chest.
“No… “, Bella whispered.
“I don’t want to”, he said touching her hair.
“Then stay…” Bella said. She was holding his shirt walking slowly back to the bed making him walk to her.
“Don’t do this to me”, he wined.
“ Don’t tell me things like that then”, she said and smiled sitting on the bed holding on to him.
“Let me clear things for you”, he said, his face close to hers. “I have to leave so he won’t be able to “smell” my scent…”, he explained.
“Oh… no…”, Bella said worried.
“I wish I could make you fall asleep, but you’re the only one I can’t control… instead you control me”, Edward said. He leaned closer to kiss her and he stopped as if he was listening something.
“What is it?”, Bella asked.
“He’s coming back”, Edward said.
“Wait”, Bella said. She rushed on to him and kissed him breathing slowly holding his face. He touched her face and disappeared.
Bella felt his breath on her face. She felt his fingers touching her face going down her face. He leaned his face touching hers, she opened her eyes. Jacob. She pulled back looking at him.
“What are you doing here?”, Bella asked.
“This is how you welcome me?”, he asked looking at her.
“Jacob, your kidding me right?”, she asked.
“What did I do now?”, he complaint.
“You left”, she said.
“You pissed me off, what you wanted me to do?”, Jacob said.
“This is how you show me you love me, leaving me alone?”, she complained.
“I…”, Jacob said but stopped didn't know what to tell her.
“You what?”, she said looking at him annoyed. Jacob sighed. “Exactly Jacob”, Bella said.
“I didn’t say anything…”, he said.
“Exactly”, she said. She rolled her eyes pulled her hair back and got off the bed. She looked outside the window, was it all just a dream…?
Jacob hold her, her back on his chest, his head breathing on her neck. “I left so I wouldn’t hurt you, I had to calm down”, he said. Bella breathed unable to push his hands off her.
She could but she didn’t want to. His breath on her neck make her want him, it wasn’t right. She hated what she was doing, but she couldn’t choose. He kissed her neck, she closed her eyes, bit her lips, sighted,“Jacob?”, she said waiting.
“mhm”, he murmured, kept kissing her neck.
“what exactly are we?, she asked and looked at him
“what do you mean?”, he asked. He stopped thinking.
“we broke up remember”, she said.
“I remember”, Jacob said. He looked down.
“So we are just friends right?”, Bella asked. She moved his hands of her, and turned and looked at him.
“You kiss your friends?”, Jacob asked. He looked at her.
She touched his fingers, hold his hands with hers touching his fingers with hers, walking him backwards to the wall. “Are you gonna answer me?”, she asked.
He looked at her, she pushed him on the wall touching his t-shirt with her hands, “Tell me”, he asked her impatient.
“If they are hot yes”, Bella said. She smiled at him, but he looked at her seriously. She pulled him on to her from the t-shirt and breath on his lips.
“What are you doing?”, Jacob asked.
“Whatever I want…”, Bella said.
“what do you want?”, he asked.
“Now… you”, she said.
“Now?”, he asked.
“Yes now”, she said.
“When you became so…”, Jacob said but kept thinking what to tell her.
“Jacob…”, Bella said.
“What?”, he asked. She kissed him touching his face. “No…”, he said. He tried to move his lips away from hers and she kissed him more, making him kissing her back.
He stopped and hold her face in his hands, “Why are you doing this to me”, he whispered. He looked in her eyes.
“I’m not doing anything”, Bella said. she looked down.
“This isn’t you, you weren’t like that…”, Jacob said reach her hand to touch her face.
Bella closed her eyes almost cried, “That girl is dead, you shouldn’t hurt me at the first place, because you hurt me Jacob you hurt me!!”, she yelled at him and cried hold her face in her hands. Jacob hold her in his arms, she pushed him and he let go of her, “I’m not yours anymore..!!”, she cried out.
“Then why you kiss me?!”, he asked.
“Because I can’t stop what I feel for you, I can’t stay away from you…”, she said still crying. “I can’t either… I should be preparing to be the leader of the pack instead I left everything and came after you.”, Jacob said.
“It’s too later Jacob, it’s over…”, Bella said.
“No, don’t do this to me”, he said.
“It’s over”, she said.
Jacob touched her face and kissed her, Bella kissed him back stopped crying running her fingers through his hair. “Don’t leave me…”, he whispered touching her face.
“I can’t”, Bella said. She smiled at him shortly touching his face.
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(lost don’t leave me I’m lost)©
Song by Melanie!
1. ever since you left
I still think of you day after day.
I’m nothing without you
But perfect by your side
I know I was wrong
So I guess I deserve this
Letting me go,
All alone
And you just leave
CHORUS:
My tears a storm fallin’ on you,
And me beggin’ you don’t leave.
I told you I love you
But you pushed me away.
I don’t know what I’ll do without you,
I didn’t know then but I know now.
It’s too late.
I see you walk away
2. when I lost you
My heart died with my happiness.
When I look at you [I say I love you / my eyes say I love you]
Second chance for happiness
The only thing I ask.
But your not there
CHORUS
3. I’m sorry it’s all I can say,
I failed you when you were there.
I miss you and I can’t stop crying.
I want you
But you ain’t listening.
I’m empty without you
And I wanna die
CHORUS
4. I just wish I could make you happy but I can’t
I feel like you hate me,
Mute whatever I say.
I wanna love you,
Like you used to love me
Like I said, used to,
Now you ain’t wanna talk to me no more.
I don’t know what to do I’m lost
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credit goes to the lovely Melanie!
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drawing credits: Dont leave me. i lost by glittersniffer
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